The beginning of the end....

Hola... welcome to my blog.. something I started where I can be unfiltered and honest about everyday life... womanhood, parenthood, wifehood, teacherhood, and just plan hood.  It's amazing the different roles a woman plays on a daily basis, and the only acknowledgement they really get is being a woman. PFFT..wth is that. We are people too, word?

I am officially a 4th grade teacher.I have to report in 3 days to work. They changed me from my comfy, cozy, already routine 3rd grade classroom to 4th grade. Why? Because I am awesome, that's why. My Principal's exact words were: " we need someone in 4th grade to help with behavior management and increase the achievement scores. That someone is you. You have a good repoire with the parents, and a better relationship with the students." BLAH BLAH BLAH. Basically, this is why it happened- the recently promoted assistant principal is riding his high horse, and coercing the principal to make all these changes. It starts by breaking up the "cliques" and having everyone run as machines in the school building. I have some other ideas about what's going on, but I am not ready to publicly broadcast them.... yet.... So, I've been busting my butt trying to get my new classroom organized and put together, but alas, I am overwhelmed. The math curriculum itself it a huge change, but I'll deal. I always do. Keep ya posted on how the 4th grade is compared to my beloved 3rd grade.

In other news, people are disappointing. Not breaking news, I know. But seriously, people suck.  They expect you to give,give, give, yet they aren't willing to reciprocate. People dont' really understand the whole idea of being in a relationship.Just my 2 cents, but any relationship is 50/50, except parent-child. In order to feel loved, you must love yourself- I understand, But in all honesty, in order to feel loved- you must give love. EVERY human being enjoys the validation of being appreciated and accepted by their friends and family. Yet,many people don't know how to show appreciation. ME INCLUDED. I hate feeling like a loner, yet I realize I may not give people the attention they need from me. Correction- I may not give the DESERVING people the attention they need. I waste too much time and energy for the wrong people. I have "BFFs" that I seriously wait by the phone to hear from, yet.. NOTHING. WHY? because I though they were my BFF, and I trusted them with secrets...and I FEEL LIKE AN IDIOT. Well-guess what- NO MORE will that occur. I'm not wasting my time with people who won't even return text messages, yet they post FB statuses every other minute.. from their phone. Which leads me to a Mommy group I'm in.... I am soon leaving. Why? Because I don't feel like they care if I'm there or not. I respond to posts all day long, and when I post.. rarely nothing. SO..... I'm on the verge of leaving, and will most likely do so.

One last thing.. I have a love/hate relationship with  my 2 yr old. He's awesome. He learns and talks so much every day. I HATE HATE HATE TRIPLE HATE.. his tantrums. He gets to be sooooo mean. Its like the devil takes over and he becomes this raging, screaming, biting/hitting/pinching lunatic... and he wont stay asleep in his crib...so he stays in our bed for 50% of the night.. BAD mommy, I know.. need to get him OUT of that habit ASAP!

Thanks for reading Day 1 of my blog. Take it to the bank, cash it, or save it.. there'll be more 2 cents coming your way ... soon.

Peace out, girl scouts.